I lied.
I did ask…in a manner of speaking.
I asked for clarification…elaboration…what the hell could your smiley response mean to that deeply exposing text I sent…
And I got silence.
Silence I understand…
Silence needs no clarification…
You’re done…with me…with my big scary emotions…god forbid I put myself out there to you and you just aren’t looking for a relationship…
You said you were…and maybe you are…but just not with me…
All you had to do was say so…say slow down…say back off…and maybe you did…with your silence that I just wouldn’t accept…
But now I will…
Because some piece of me knows that I am better than that…
I’m worth more than all your smiley faces and blow jobs and fucks…
I’m worth more than your silence…
I deserve more.